Dear Wisdom:

I do not support in any way, shape or form that you contact this man online the way you have last time. It is only asking for trouble for yourself. It is like looking up to the sky, picking up one of the stars (I did that many times as a child and teenager) and saying to the star: save me, rescue me! If you don’t, I will die. There is no reason for me to live!

And you give all your faith and hope to the star…. and truth is (you want the truth!)- the star does not care about you because it is a star, not a person, and the star doesn’t even know you. It doesn’t know or care. It couldn’t and wouldn’t. It is up there, being a star. Not a personal savior of you. It doesn’t even know your entire hope is dependent on it.

You do want the truth, Wisdom. So it occurred to me just now that I can give you some truth that I did not give to you before, in this particular way:

You feel that you are a fool. You wrote that many times, in the above post and before. The truth is that you are a fool. But not for the same reasons you think you are a fool (and that is in itself foolish, not knowing the reason you are a fool).

The true reason you are a fool is that you are expecting a man who does not know hardly anything about you, to care for you, to know that your whole life is dependent on him. He doesn’t know it and has no way of knowing it. So that is foolish of you to expect so much from someone online who does not know you.

It is foolish to put your trust in a person out there that.. not only doesn’t know you, but you don’t know him.

It is also foolish of you to believe you are ugly and worthless- but to expect a random person who has no idea who you are, to change your belief is very foolish.

So, if you are desperate enough to not even want to live, are you desperate enough to drop the foolishness and give life a chance without the foolishness? Are you desperate enough to live up to the name you chose for yourself: Wisdom?

anita