Of course this requires mutual effort. Right now there is no such thing. So, i will let the river take its course.

Your reply shows exactly how loose things are and can be. You previously said something about avoiding what ifs. There is no one to guarantee you that in the next relationship you can avoid anything. In life, there are infinite variables. That is why i insisted in focusing with my current situation instead of focusing in future relationships. Right now, all i need is feedback, like you said. I am sure that you too agree that her silence is creating a bunch of unanswered thoughts, a situation in which that many of us reading this topic can correlate with.