What if its your family? Now that I refuse to be bubbly I realize more and more how fake most of my family is. My dad hides behind the computer or TV. My mom keeps on saying how fun everything is and really emphasizes you should be good and how great everything is. I have one brother who isn’t fake but is 5 years younger than me and is a teenager so I don’t think it’s that appropriate to tell him all this stuff going on. My other brother is really into being seen as cool and power playing if threatened so not that genuine. I feel really alone. The only one I can feel like I can talk to is my bf. I’m allowed to be depressed or mad or sad or happy with him. I am loved by him despite what I feel. I feel like it’s unfair of me to put this all on him. I also have two other friends who are pretty genuine. I feel so sad with my family. I just want to say “how are you doing, no really how are you doing?” I feel depressed right now, just a whirlwind of emotions. I’ve been isolating myself from them, which probably isn’t good. But every time I start talking with them I want to break down and cry. I want to say “how can you all (except for my youngest brother) live like this?! It is so painful”. I feel really alone with my family. It’s the weirdest thing. I’ve supposedly known these people all my life, but actually don’t really know them.