I really do feel your pain. I let my heart break at the beginning of this year and consequently sunk into depression. The pain you describe, sitting up all night, feeling like a zombie I have been through and am probably still going through. I would say only this month I can feel myself getting a bit better. At least you have left the person who made you feel like this, I have chosen to try and forgive… You WILL find yourself again and you WILL enjoy life again. I’m not quite there yet but I’ve found the determination to aim for it! Search inside yourself to find the determination to get better and you will… Slowly xxxx I hope it helps you to know that there are many people who have felt as low as you and have come through it. That’s what keeps me going x