Hello Trixie,

I read your post with curiosity. I hear your pain and empathize how that must feel.

I would ask you these questions;

What do you want to accept?
What CAN you accept right now?
How big is the gap between what you want to accept, and what you can accept?
What does that gap look like?
What CAN’T you accept right now?
(In follow up to the above) Why can’t you accept this?
What needs to change for you to accept?
Apart from acceptance, what else is missing for you right now?

Although difficult, looking into ourselves in times of struggle can help. It’s a process. Do the work and be patient. Discover whats really important.

Another good technique to help gather a wider perspective of your challenge right now is to look at it from above. If you were in a helicopter looking down at you, your struggle and the people around you, what would you see? Whats going on around you? What are you doing to influence that environment? Whats contolling or influencing you? What would you like this aerial view to look like?

I sincerely wish you well in navigating a path to healing. You deserve a chance to move forward and grow. I hope this helps a little.

With warmth and love,

Matt.