Yeah Indiglo- My therapist keeps telling me she’s going to whack me with her clipboard if I insist on the totally black or white responses to things! 🙂

I am actually better than I was. I think the message from the mediator to set things up for the final agreement sent me down a bad path. It is not unexpected, but it hammered me far harder than I thought it would. I guess up to this point I always had a faint hope of our being able to sit down, compromise, and work through everything to save the marriage. Time will dull the pain and maybe I’ll find some balance and even start to like living again. But how many times have we read that we need to live in the now? And my “now” has hurt me beyond any hurt I’ve ever had in my life. Not even my younger brother or my father passing away compares to this loss.