Tera,

Your words “if I wasn’t good enough at the start I will probably never be good enough for him.” seems like the wrong lesson. You opened your heart to him, he walked away from it. You moved on, and he came back. Now being with him feels like a chore. Love does not feel like a chore, even when we are doing chores. 🙂 Trust that… you moved on and don’t really want to hang out with him. That’s enough. It has nothing to do with good enough.

Perhaps there is something inside of you that fears being alone? I wonder what the inspiration to even consider being with him is about. If someone asked me if I was good enough to be with someone I didn’t like, I would say “why even consider that? I don’t want that” and move on.

With warmth,
Matt