Hi Laura,
thank you so much for the insights. I do agree with some parts of your message. But i have to mention something, I am feeling much better right now, after I started to manage to seperate my ego from my true self, because I realized it was my ego that was trying to control the outcome and controling someone else. Anyways, I have realized that although I had a great time with him during that time, and it needed to be left at that for now or forever I am not sure yet, but the bottom line is, it is not about him, I never wanted a long distance anyways, and I only started with him because I was planning to be in nyc soon. Universe has its own reasons, and I have to have faith, I can not control other people’s actions, I still think he was a nice guy, he was very sweet to me, and I might be upset not having him around, and I might not do it the way he did, but I might understand why. It doesn’t really matter I guess. If he was meant to be with me he would have.
As for you, to be honest I see a lot of anger in your message, hence the one year and haven’t been able to move on. Once I started to seperate my ego from myself and my pain I was able to feel better and move on. I think you are talking with your ego here, and still connected to it, that is why you are a bit judgmental in your words about guys. I know I was too at first, but you have to see it’s not really about them is it? I can get super angry in one second right now if i think with my ego and say; how dare he do this to me, how rude, how emmature, he has to answer to me, he has an obligation, etc. But that is my ego, and all it does it upsets ME and not anyone else, as you said, you messsaging him only made you upset and not him. I do agree with all you said, but that is at first when you are upset, then I go to the next faze that I put my ego aside. My true self knows that deep down universe gives me what I need. It’s not about him. So I think you have to see it like I am seeing it now( I know I go up and down a lot but this has been helping me to see clearly recently) everyone has their own issues, he has them too, so he is probably dealing with whatever stage he is at in his life, we can judge them all we want, but the fact is I know that in my part I actually have done similar things to guys way in the past, that decided to leave them without consulting with them at all. Of course I was young and selfish, but my point is people need to learn their own life lessons it’s not our job to teach them, all we can do is to take care of ourselves and if they are not suppose to be part of our lives we will stay away from them.
Thanks again for the insignts 🙂 I hope I helped a little as well
Love
Danubelle