Laleh- I responded to your other post about NYC. It is great that you see the difference between ego and self.

He was in your life for reason which the spirit world has not shared with you yet. I am highly suspicious this man is a soul mate or twin flame. I say this based on how hard it has been to get over him and the fact that he was tied in so tightly with NYC.

Stop trying to overthink this and work on yourself. If you are meant to be together, you two will come back together. Go with the flow and see what happens.