Thank you for sharing part of your story.

Remember that the hardest thing is forgiving yourself. You have to be kind to yourself and not just your present self but even more so your past self. I tell my friend that the old me is the same me as now except that I had the wrong filters setup. You are always the same you, you just have to break down those nasty filters we all build. So just take it day by day. I believe in you I know you can let go of that anger.