Hi Lucia and Charquise, thank you guys so much for responding, it means a lot to me.
I just can’t seem to get over it because he’s the same guy I fell in love with everyone else, it’s just he’s being a jerk just to me. It makes me feel like it was all my fault.
I do admit part of it is my fault because while I’m focused on building up his ego and confidence, I have let him break down my own confidence which leads to some of the issues in our relationship.

The things I’d like to say to him is that I accept my responsibility in the breakup but he also has to admit his too. All I want to hear from him is that he does acknowledge that it was also his fault but that he would be willing to work it out. But I know better than to expect that because even if he feels that way, he’s too prideful to say anything and he has already move on so getting back together isn’t an option..

At this point, I honestly don’t feel like I want to be back with him either. I just feel this need to have him contact me first so I can take some power back because I feel like I gave him all the power when I begged him to stay when he wanted to breakup. I can’t stop myself from checking up on him on instagram and it seems like he’s doing well without me, which hurts my self-esteem even more. I tell myself each time that I’d stop checking, but the next day I’d have the urge to check again, hoping he’d show some sign that he’s not doing well without me.

Ahh I feel so pathetic. But thanks again ladies, I take your advice to heart and I’ll try even harder to move on now. 🙂