We see very different things! You feel like you have no soul, and I see someone who doesn’t recognize herself. In those moments, your soul was dedication. Keeping your nails done in such a way to please him still is a very dedicated and motivated effort. That just means you’ll be a great partner! It just seems like its time to become your own partner, turn your effort and love toward someone deserving… you!

Not knowing what color nails you like is not soul-less, its just not knowing what color nails you like. Good thing you woke up so you can explore and find out!