Mou,

It sound to me like you have a fear hangover. 🙂 After emotional and mental upheavals, especially long lasting ones, our bodies can feel raw. If you’ve ruled out any chemical imbalances with your doctor, then perhaps you need to exercise your joy!

One of my teachers told me that joy is fueled by generosity. We can sometimes get lost in the whirlwind of activities of a modern life, and do not give our time to helping. This spirit of helping is what makes the world sparkle. Said differently, when we think life looks blah, sometimes it is helpful to give back. If we look for ways in which we can help, and jump courageously with love, we find the clouds clear and the sun shines.

With warmth,
Matt