Hi Straight..I’ve been thinking about what you said all day, I felt that you hit a point there, but I can’t seem to figure out a direction of it, I think the wave of emotions from the heartbreak I’ve had keeps coming and keeps me at times to be able to be in the present moment, I am still (not as much but still) dueling with how he just stopped contacting me with no explanation and that has put a big shadow over my life right now, I’ve been trying to get over it, and make plans and etc. but I realized today, it has effected me more than I thought. I use to be very good at bouncing back up when life brought me down, but this time I feel like I just have to wait, does that make sense at all? not matter what I “think” I should do, something is just holding me back from taking any sort of action, for example this is the first time in my life, I didn’t even try to contact the guy to ask what is going on why haven’t I heard from you, although I had every right to do so, and everyone of my friends told me you should demand explonation, but something just holds me back, this is not me at all, I use to be a person getting answer from people weather they wanted it or not, pretty pushy and a control freak as a matter of fact. But now I even tried to push myself to contact him, I just can not. I am just sad altogether. And is keeping from moving on and not feeling so little. I wish I could get closure without contacting him, but it’s been more than a month. and no amount of meditsting, reading and asking others, has helped. The feeling of nonaction is quite high in me and is not helping y situation. job or other parts of life right now. Wish i knew what I was suppose to do.
thanks again
love
danubelle