Break ups are very difficult. We all go through them and you are DEFINITELY not the only one feeling this kind of pain and loneliness. It sucks and it hurts. Especially to be confused on top of all of it.
Do not think you are stuck with that woman, because you are not. She may have feelings for you but if you do not share the same feelings for her then it is, quite literally, a waste of your time. Love yourself more. Love yourself enough to say you can’t be in a relationship where you are not happy. Life is a beautiful gift, and if we do only get one, do you want to live it like this? The wonderful thing about this website is that these articles on here are meant to help people like me and you in several ways. Read them. Your happiness is controlled by you. It’s simple, but hard to do, I know. An article I read recently said something along the lines of, “The way you look at life is all about your mindset. If you do not focus on the negative things that happen, you will be a happier person because all that will happen to you are positive things.” It is so simple, yet we are almost programmed to be negative! I’ve been thinking about that article a lot lately and have been trying to focus more on the positive things in my life.
The pain is awful. Being single may suck at first. But, you are still young. You will heal. Every day is hard, but eventually you will find that the pain will start to go away. You will feel better. Just recently I was broken up with after a two year relationship. I didn’t eat, could barely sleep and cried all day every day. Three weeks later, though, I was starting to feel better. I found that this person was holding me back. You can move forward and become better, like me. Ignore your ex’s snide remarks and psycho-ness. Get a restraining order, block his phone number, whatever you can do. He is a negative impact on your life. Shut him out!
Maybe you can’t tell your parents about this encounter with the lesbian woman. You do not need to, though. You have inner turmoil about it and that’s obvious. Maybe you see it as a mistake; do not. See it as a learning experience. We all mess up sometimes and do things that we may regret. Life goes on, though, and living with that inner turmoil is not worth it. You just have to say to yourself, “Hey, I may have messed up, but I learned from it. I know now what I wouldn’t have known before if I hadn’t tried.”
In short, read these articles, focus on yourself and loving yourself, and block out the negative and focus on the positive. Do what you need to do to make you happy, there is nothing wrong with that.

Namaste

Don’t let those two get you down. It is probably better to not talk to the lesbian ex and definitely in your best interests to stop all communication with your ex husband. In this situation you should only think about yourself and your happiness. A lot of times we forget to put ourselves first.
And do it! Apply for those jobs. Move around, see the world. There is too much to do and see and now you are free to do it. Canada is a friendly place I have heard. I hope you get the opportunity to live and work there.

Stay positive 🙂
Nicole