I posted on here about 2-3 months ago about still being addicted to my ex even though she went back to her ex-boyfriend. I wrote that I checked my mobile every 5 minutes and that wasn’t a lie. I saw her most days and basically let her walk over me and as one person commented (Inky), I held out for ‘crumbs’ and looked for every signal or clue that she still loved me (she kept saying she did), when in fact I was taken for a mug.

Well I finally made a stand for myself yesterday and did the opposite of what she wanted me to do; I stood my ground and the true her surfaced and by god, it made the Exorcist seem quite tame. Her tirade was nothing on earth along with the language, and you know what, she has ended all contact with me and told me to go to ‘hell’ and said she doesn’t love me etc etc…

I am extremely sad of course but it was quite refreshing to stand up and stop being a puppet on a string and I left my mobile at home today and that was a good feeling not checking & checking. Yes I will have rubbish days but yesterday was a start of me saying, “Don’t treat me this way I am better than that” so if anyone out there is going through the same, I know how you feel but the first little step took me ages, and I MEAN ages but it was quite a good step and I am still alive and guess what – I am not in hell