Hi everyone! I am new to this site but I am having conflicting feelings I am not sure how to tackle.

My boyfriend and I have been together for a year and a half who started out as a rebound for me. We started hooking up before dating. We made out and kissed but I always was guarded for the fear of getting too attached and him leaving. Fast forward to a few months ago, he bought a house. We go to his parents that are 10 minutes away for dinners on Sunday, we have his friends over. I went to my parents for the weekend (an hour away from him, but 2 hours from my house at school) and he explained he was annoyed we didn’t do it together, how I am at home while he is out with his friend and his friend’s girlfriend.

I feel like I am in a rut. I had strep throat a few days ago and was really sick and he bought me things to feel better but then had things to do like fix his truck and go to his parents for dinner, and left me home in bed alone.

I am lacking the emotional support. Anytime we try to talk, whether in person or over text message he always deflects and tries to get out of the conversation. We don’t kiss anymore – and he blames it on that he tries and I turn away. Which I may do sometimes. I don’t feel like we are in a partnership or a team. He does his thing and I do mine. I am graduating in 2 months and he doesn’t want to talk about the future, or when we do it’s that I should move into his house and look for my career there but if an opportunity arises somewhere else, I don’t think he would relocate for me.

I’m fairly young, I’m going to be 24. I know in my heart I love him. I have an anxiety disorder so I tend to over analyze a lot. I don’t feel validated at times or he doesn’t care what excites me, or if we’re just being lazy sometimes it’s because I’m feeling down in an off mood, and he doesn’t try to bring me up. Am I expecting too much? Is his love language of showing love different than mine? He buys a lot of things like groceries, when we go out for dinner, etc. since I am in school. I don’t know how to continue, I am unsure of how to bring this up to talk about.