Oooo I know how you feel, but congrats to you for staying strong, 2 months is a long time! Signs are everywhere. It sounds to me you are not over him as he is still in your mind making the signs more prevalent. Have you tried meditating? As far as the phone, don’t compare yourself to other girls. I would get rid of FB as it seems like you’re vulnerable to comparing yourself to others at the present time. Maybe down the road you’ll be ready for it. Remember you are on your own journey in this life. Trust in a higher power that you are exactly where you are meant to be at the present moment. Keep working on yourself and creating a happy life for you! xo!

Hmmmm. “…the universe sending me signs…” I can’t say I subscribe to that philosophy, but that’s simply my bias which I put out there openly and honestly.

Could what you’re experiencing be an analogy to the fact that when someone is asked to stop thinking of pink elephants, all they think about is pink elephants?

I’m wondering if you’re actively working at not thinking about him, trying to push him out of your thoughts. Is he constantly walking in and out of your imagination? Are you having conversations with him in your head only to recognize that it’s happening and then trying to actively suppress those thoughts?

In my experience, whenever I become obsessed about something, but actively trying to push it out, I find the object of my obsession boomerangs right back at me in indirect ways; in images, sounds, signs (both figurative and literal), TV shows, movies, commercials, the internet, in other people, it’s everywhere!

And what happens then? Well, you think to yourself, “If I’m seeing these things, then they must be important right? It must all mean something? It must be sign! Right?”

Wrong! In fact, I’m going to argue that it’s all a hallucination brought about by your mind. The only meaning any person, place, or thing has, is the the meaning that you ascribe to it. And you can choose to make it meaning nothing or everything. It’s up to you.

But if, deep down inside, you want it to mean something, if you’re still obsessing, if you’re still attached, then if you look closely enough, you’ll probably be able to see his face in the grain of sand.

I like Matt’s suggestion – breathe in, breathe out and begin to see things for what they really are.

Trixie-belle,

I’m happy you’ve been meditating and cultivating metta! If a million people did that, there would be a million peaceful people. 🙂 A small thing came to heart as I read your words.

Not silly, just “is”. Not crazy, just “is”. This world has plenty of people who will try to step on a curious and explorative heart… no need for Trixie-belle to be one of them! 🙂

With warmth,
Matt