Hello, I would like to start with explaining that the path I am on now, which is to become a certified pharmacy technician, happened unexpectedly and it almost feels like a miracle. Before I decided to go down this path I had no idea what to do with my life, and then this opportunity landed into my lap so I decided to run with it. In the beginning I was super excited. So excited that I decided to go to school to become certified, that in itself felt like a miracle too because I had been wanting to go to school but didn’t want to go into debt. The school literally paid for everything.

Today I have been in the program full-time (Monday-Friday) and have been averaging 20 hours at work for about three months. I’m burnt out. I have become so stressed throughout these last few months that I have been questioning if I’m even on the right path. I knew things were going to be hard, but not this hard. I hate where I work, and even though it’s in the pharmacy it is still in retail and it’s too busy for me. I’ve been wanting to quit but I have internship coming up soon with school. But on top of all this, the school program sucks. The teacher is totally unorganized, and I’ve learned more on the job than at school.

I’m getting so burnt out that I’ve started calling out of work, and have missed a number of days at school. I even started going back to therapy and have an appointment with a psychiatrist to see if my lack of concentration and stress are from another underlying issue. Which I kind of hate, because I don’t like relying on medicine to “fix” me.

In point, I feel so out of control with my life and I just don’t know what to do, or who/what can help. I’ve tried having faith that things will work out in the end, but I just revert back to my old worried thinking. I feel depressed, emotionally out of control, can’t concentrate, and just can’t take the demands of everyday life. I want a more relaxed, peaceful life. But right now everything just feel so chaotic.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.