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March 3, 2014 at 5:56 am #52156IcyParticipant
With the help of my doctor I have weaned off my Celexa (20mg) over two months now. This is now my 2nd week without my meds. I am having severe anger issues now along with bad mood swings. It was fine during the taper off period but recently something happened that has really shaken me. My husband was in a car accident and I am so thankful he is ok but he rear ended someone and the car is probably going to be totaled out. I can’t see to get over my anger at him and I dont know why. I know he didn’t do it on purpose and I know he feels terrible since the car was paid off and now we have to get a loan to get another car. I love him so much but I just have so much anger in me right now and I dont know how to find peace and forgiveness without my meds.
I can’t help but think that if I were on my meds I wouldn’t have had such a harsh reaction to the accident and financial toll but I don’t want to get back on the meds. My husband and I have been arguing ever since the accident happened a week ago. I’ve been so bitter toward him and I hate it. He wants me to get back on my meds but I’ve been on some type of SSRI since I was 18 and I’m 30 now and I’m tired of depending on medication and it does have side affects that I don’t like.
Does anyone have any suggestions? I’m trying to be mindful but it is so hard right now. I feel like a horrible person because I just take it all out on my husband and he’s having a hard time with it (of course who wouldn’t.) I am so thankful he is ok after the accident but I’m sure not seeming that way due to my erratic anger and actions.
Thank you all in advance. Tiny Buddha has helped me a lot with the wonderful articles.
March 3, 2014 at 2:01 pm #52184SteveParticipantHi Icy.Could’nt help but notice the SSRI in caps in your subject line.As a person who as taken these types of drugs for 20 years I can offer some advice.First though,you failed to mention why you’ve chosen to stop your meds.Can you elaborate?
Ragggggggggggggggggggge! Yeh I understand that.It’s a very common side effect of withdrawal from some meds and if you’re set on stopping the medication it is something you’ll have to deal with though it will pass.Just try to stop and talk to yourself saying,”this is just a withdrawal symptom it’s not my real personality or true feelings”. Also simpily remove yourself from the situation that is causing the anger.Treat youself like you have a cold,after all you are sick so get in bed and try to keep to yourself until you feel strong enough to deal.
Unfortunately the withdraws from these meds are usually worse than the original depression or anxiety you were treating.I swear it seems like the drug companies do this so you remain a slave to their product for life.Maybe just paranoia on my part but I’ve had some hellish withdrawals and to this day I still take 20MG of generic Lexapro daily which is really just a sugar pill for me but it makes me feel like I’m attempting to treat my depression.
Can you tell me what you don’t like about Celexa? I’m actually considering it for myself.My meds haven’t worked for me for quite some time.I actually did switch from Lexapro to a new drug call Viibyrd about 6 months ago and had my worst experience ever with that drug.Only took it for 1 month and I felt like I was on speed.Could’nt sleep,craved sugar like crazy and just spun myself into a frenzy.Stopping cold turkey even with only having I month of the drug in my system gave me brain zaps and the worst anxiety I’ve ever had.I swear a few times I thought I was having a heart attack! Needless to say NEVER take the drug Viibyrd.
Hope my advice helps a little.I know for me it helps to know someone is in the same boat as me.Kinda twisted huh !March 3, 2014 at 4:46 pm #52191AlParticipantIcy,
There are certain questions you can ask yourself to help keep your rage and anger under control (and perhaps eliminate it once and for all, as it did for me). For example, what has rage ever done to help improve my life? What has rage and anger ever solve? Has my life improved because of anger? Will my anger promote the sound life I wish for? Will rage help me reach my goals? Will it be necessary for my future?
I understand you may have an extreme case for it. However, feel some ease in knowing that you are attempting to abolish it. It means you truly want better for yourself. I commend you for this.
In addition, understanding and accepting that nothing in life is ‘in our control’ will greatly help. Such thinking is an illusion. Nothing is ever truly in our grasp. There are too many uncontrollable forces at work. We may only ever try.
I hope this will help. Also, do not feel discouraged if you still display occasional bouts. Think of it similarly to a smoker who is trying to quit. It is impossible to instantly eliminate the habit. We must go at a pace with which simply results in progress, no matter how little. Hence, do not give up.
Good luck,
Al
March 3, 2014 at 6:53 pm #52215IcyParticipantThank you Steve and Al for your replies.
I have decided to stop Celexa since my husband and have been trying to get pregnant for a little over a year now and Celexa has completely destroyed my libido…which doesn’t help when you are trying to have a child lol. 🙂
I still take Wellbutrin but my doctor suggested I first try and wean off Celexa since it is the one that can cause birth defects later in pregnancies plus the libido issue was/is a very big deal to me. It’s really hard to have no desire at all for a couple years. I used to take a high dose of Wellbutrin and it was causing severe paranoia. When I went to a different doctor, she lowered my dose and added the Celexa to help balance me out so that I wouldn’t have the paranoia and I also had obsessive thoughts so the Celexa was given for that as well.
I agree with you Steve, sometime it does make you wonder if it is all in the drug companies’ plans because I feel the same way, the getting off the meds sure seems worse than what it was trying to treat. I would recommend Celexa since it helped me greatly and I felt like me again! I just feel that since situations in my life have gotten much better than when I was prescribed it I wanted to see if I can get off it so I can put some “fun” back in my relationship.
Al, thanks for your post also. I know I cannot control things but in reading your post I realize that I am not accepting that fact and I am trying to control everything. I notice that I have a bad tendency to try and control almost all aspects of my life and it’s hard for me to realize that it really isn’t in my hands to begin with. This is something I do need to work on. I liked how you put that thinking that we control life is an illusion, I never thought of it that way before.
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