Hello everyone, thank you so much for having read this. My name is Trisan (i’m a girl by the way) and today..i tell my friends about my feeling for him. I’ve been knowing him for three years. He is my colleague at campus. At first i deny any feeling or things like the sparks of love from me to him. But day by day i came very fond of him.

But today it wasn’t like what i think before. I don’t know that the act of my honesty by telling him the feeling will lead us to better relationship or worse. I don’t ask him to date me, i only ask him a question: what if i like you? and he reply: That’s normal and okay. He said the he knows it will turn out like this. He knows that i like him. He said that after i tell him my feeling.

Actually, i don’t plan to telling him. But he insist me to spill the words that had bothered me lately. I said that this was a question of a topic that i know he wouldn’t like it. Well he is kinda avoided this topic with me. We are just awkward when speak about something like love and relationship. So we rarely chit-chat about that and avoided that topic. But today i’m tiring having denial. So i be blunt and tell him. He said that things won’t change. But why is that kinda lie for me? Why i’m feeling uneasy.

I keep blaming my self for this uneasiness but it’s already happenned and i can’t do anything to rewind the time and prevent myself. When i read a book or watch movies or listening my friends stories the moment when we confess our feeling is the most happy time. But why i feel a reverse?

He even avoided me when we walk to the parking lot. We usually walking together to the parking lot. But he keeping a distance. Why he even keeping a false promise like things won’t change? Why after being honest with my feeling things that i feel is pain at my heart? I know that he will unable to liking me back at this time. I try to feeling okay, to think that everything will be okay. But why this pain is still exist?

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