As my third year of college fast approaches, I am preparing to say goodbye to graduating friends (or rather people I thought I could connect well with and despite much effort, didn’t) I cannot help but be saddened. Happy that I experienced many adventures and different stages of my college career along with them, but sad to have our story end here. Even though I barely got to know them and I have not influenced their life greatly, they have influenced me and I now realize it is because of them that I progressed little by little thanks to these inspiring attitude and kindness.

I hate that I am attached to the wish that our friendship could have been deeper and lasted longer. I wish I didn’t feel empty with the thought of them out of my life. It is ironic, that I am always in this battle to not become attached to people and the desire to have close friends but regardless I still grieve when they leave my life, with the extra sting of regret of not being able to connect.

And yet, I have the opportunity to grow as an individual. Rather than be discouraged and residing inside my head, alone once more, I need to be more open than before. I will be meeting new motivated people and I know I must heal quickly from my loss so I may build new relationships.

I hope one day, that my old friends cross paths with me once more, that this is simply a “see you soon” rather than a final farewell. It is important regardless that I keep a positive attitude and know that this is a beginning, not an end.