Hi im a 19year old boy and I’m in a fairly new relationship. I would say its around 3months now officialy and it is my first serious relationship. My boyfriend and I both live 9 hours by train away even though we decided to meet up and do stuff together as often as possible I feel somewhat wrong. We are texting almost every day, even when we both are at work. I often stop texting, even if hes at home because I feel like im annoying him or taking away to much of his time but at the same time I actually want to talk or text with him.

I keep thinking about if he means it serious with me, if he really loves me. It’s not like he doesn’t tells me that he loves me, it’s quite the oppsoite he is very sweet and cute. He says really nice things and tries to make me open up to him about problems I have with myself without trying to force me to tell him about it but the next few days he seems disinterested or to have already forgotten. Just recently he was gone with friends for a few days and we didn’t talk at all. I noticed how unused I was to not be talking to him. I missed him a lot and he told me he did too. The point is I just feel jealous so easily. I feel like I’m really needy and clingy. I’m scared he won’t love me anymore if I open up more to him, i fear that he will hate me because of some of my troublesome thoughts.

I get frustrated with him sometimes because he will never complain about things, he doesn’t seem bothered by anything while I seem to overthink every little damn thing. But then again thats not completly true, when I was gone for a few days because I was really sick without saying anything he was really worried and told me to never leave him.

Am I just angry with myself and carry/transfer it to him? Is it wrong to have doubting thoughts? It’s a fresh relationship and I already feel completly stressed out thinking about so much, whats right and wrong.