My LDR of 2 years recently broke up with me just under 2 weeks ago, a month before we were meant to see eachother. We had spent 5 months apart, the longest we had ever been, since last we saw eachother which was ultimately the reason for our relationship’s demise and seems to have killed her interest in it. It has been awful and lonely, and I pray every day that she reconsiders (although I fear the distance will highly disincentivise this), but in a sense I’m grateful for the pain as it’s forcing me to come to terms with improving my current external / internal environment and lack of fulfillment rather than using flying to see her as a form of escapism.

Regardless, the breakup after the long time apart and short time before I would’ve seen her is having some weird effects on my psyche and is causing me to hyper-idealise things that remind me of her and her country. For context, I live on one side of Europe and she on the other.
Even though I’ve cleared my living space / phone / social media of her I see ghosts of her everywhere, whether it be people or things that remind me of her family that sends me down the mental rabithole of remembering how lovingly they treated me; anything resembling Mediterranean culture reminds me how wonderfully hospitable everything and everyone was there and how societally (and literally) cold Northern Europe is in comparison. I’ve noticed I miss not only her but the entire circumstance surrounding her. It hurts that I’ll likely never be able to experience her country in the same way again.

I know logically that the improvement in my quality of life and inevitable time for healing will help me reclaim my surroundings, but is there any method to disassociate them with her so I’m not anxious whenever I’m exposed to things that indirectly remind me of her? I feel this is particularly holding me back.
Many thanks.