Although it is a real hard process, I’m trying each day to find courage and make choices without the fear of mistakes. I know my folks won’t change, it’s up to me to change myself. But even with saying that, I don’t know exactly how.
<p style=”text-align: center;”>Last night I found out my ex got his PhD and although I don’t want him ever again in my life and I’m no longer in love with him, it did hurt. He went on with his life and seemingly</p>
<p style=”text-align: center;”>he succeeded while I have not. Thinking that I’m not evolving, that I’m behind in life is so much, I cannot breath at times. I don’t want to be a failure. 😔</p>
Your ex (the one who let you go back home sick and feverish by yourself, taking 3 buses and walking a lot?) got his PhD in what subject?
“I’m trying each day to find courage and make choices without the fear of mistakes”-
– Here is my suggestion: make a list of big mistakes you have done so far in life. It will be easier for you to avoid big mistakes, than it is be to avoid any and all mistakes (small, big and in between), therefore identifying big mistakes and focusing on avoiding those is a good beginning.
You can share that list of big mistakes here, if you want.