I am not sure how many people have felt this… I know that I am not alone, though. Outside of this site, it is rare to come across a person who has even remotely what it means to be ‘depressed’. The feeling is unreal. You are living a nightmare. Everyday, I wake up and find something to hate about myself. You wish to erase yourself, scratch every inch of yourself away. To just not exist. Wouldn’t that be better for everyone? Do people only care when you die? It’s so sad to see someone alone, but I think more people are alone than we realize. I can put on a smile everyday, but every night, try to cut myself away. I have scars on my skin and scars on my heart. I am the living dead. Everyone wants to know why the dead girl killed herself, just ask the one still living.

Killing myself would mean to take a piece of others away with me. I have never been a taker. I won’t start now.