Hello Everyone, this is my first post. I am M/33 yrs old. I was with my girlfriend for 6 yrs and we lived together. She unexpectedly broke up with me and just had many excuses why she did. Before the break up, yes we would fight and it was all because of her. She would find little reasons to argue about. She ended up leaving to help her ill parents which I was ok with but I think it became to much for her to do alone and became really stressed out and just felt like it was too much for her. She broke up with me, she wouldnt talk to me or want to see me really. Many things ran in my mind. I was still there and tried to see her and get her back, nothing worked. We both moved out, she went to her parents and so did I. She later told me she was Depressed and taking medication. I started to understand her actions of before. I held her hand and said its goign to be ok and I will be here for you. We would talk every day, see each other every weekend. She did have her downs when taking ther Depression Medication. We spent a week together for my bday week and she was back to her old self, hugging me, kissing me, dancing, laughing, she had that spark in her eyes and the glow in her face which I havent seen in months. Later that night we went to have dinner and I slept over and her father gave her Sh*t for me sleeping over and she got defensive as why is he acting that way if we lived together for 6 yrs and why does it bother him. Well sad to say since that day she has not been the same. shes been distant and non affectionate towards me at all. We really didnt talk as much or saw eachother as much for weeks until recently we started to talk more every day. I can honestly say I love her and I have been there for her. She unfotunaly says things that bother me and anger me like when she gives me a tight hug and breaths heavy and says “what did you feel? I didnt feel anything” like why say that? idk. Ive been there and also have to put space between us at times so her depression or negative vibe wont affect me. she has told me thank you for not giving up on me and being there for me but yet she says things to upset me or hurt me and yet I think she doesnt realize what shes doing.

Yesterday I had a really bad day and felt stressed and angry. She called at night and I was happy to hear from her, I asked what she was doing before she called and the first thing to come out is “I opened the phone bill and you are always on the phone and text alot”. I responded “ok, and?. I text a lot with the guys about BS and I call my cousins alot now (to vent)” she just said ok, well your in a bad mood so talk to you later, i didnt hesiste and said ok bye. she text me after “your rude”. I was feeling stressed and angry and I just didnt want to take it out on her. She never checks the phone bill. why now?. I text her back with im sorry but I had a really tuff day today. no response. Even now i feel angry and stressed.

I love her but I feel like I put all the effor into trying to fix the relationship while she probably assumes I will always be there. SOmetimes I think to myself if she really loves me and she just wants to find her self again after falling into depression, not having a job for 2yrs also.