December 22, 2015 at 8:54 pm #90384
I’ve always if there is problems always around yiu look at yourself because it’s probably you. My problem seems to always be the same. I make friends or even with the man I’m in a relationship with now. I can feel close to people for a while then I realize I’m the only one that seems to put in any effort. I am always thinking of how my actions will make others feel yet noone seems to care about me. They say they do and if I question things it’s like I’m crazy for wanting more. How do I grow a thicker skin so none of this bothers me?December 22, 2015 at 9:00 pm #90386
I’m sorry using my phone and it wouldn’t
Let me check before I submitted. I meant
I’ve always heard if there is a problem…December 22, 2015 at 9:01 pm #90387
You mean you want to continue putting all the effort while others don’t care about you, only not be bothered by it,
do you want to change your choices of the people in your life and your own behavior with the people you choose so to get a better return on the investment of your efforts?
anitaDecember 22, 2015 at 9:26 pm #90388
anita is right
avoid people who don’t respect you
better to be alone than lonely in a relationship with someone who doesn’t show you the respect you deserveDecember 22, 2015 at 9:32 pm #90389
I want to not care. Sometimes I think
I am to sensitive. My friends I work
With seem ok with me if I don’t disagree
With them or be kind to someone they don’t
Tomorrow is my birthday and tonight my bf is
Off with friends drinking. When I go out I
Always keep in touch because I wouldn’t want
Him to worry or think I wasn’t thinking of
Him or just to say I love you. My bf is out
And I don’t hear from him except one time to say he is staying at his friends to drink.
I am always doing little things for people.
Cooking a dinner, buying a coffee, small things
But I also am the one they can write off like I
I’ve never had that one person I connect with. I’m usually the 3rd wheel. It’s hard to explain. It’s just lonely and I don’t know
If I need to change or accept I’m meant to be
Lonely.December 22, 2015 at 11:01 pm #90395
If it hurts to be generous, don’t be generous.
Make your own life, your own friends apart from your boyfriend. Don’t make him the centre of your world.
Other people can’t make you happy.
Try to be happy by yourself.December 23, 2015 at 9:00 am #90407
Share about your childhood, if you would like. Answers to questions are there, most, most likely. I will read and respond.
anitaDecember 23, 2015 at 7:12 pm #90470
My childhood was very religious. Baptist
Parents. They took me and my brother out of
School to homeschool us. We were part of a very
Religious and strict group. My brother was the
Favorite. He could do no wrong. I was the one
That my mom took things out on. She did it in
A way though that noone could see. I knew
What every eye movement, look, sigh meant and
I lived to make her happy and I failed alot.
She would get on the other side of her bed on the floor and sob. I cleaned and waited on my
Dad and brother. I didn’t get an education
Really because everything we needed to know
Was in the bible. My brother one time did this
Horrible thing and instead of him being punished I was punished because I didn’t prevent
It from happening.
The guys I dated were who she wanted. Most ended up being gay. My ex I only married becauee I shamed them by getting pregnant before marriage and they forbid me to live
With him in sin. When I would try to break up
With him he would carve my name in his arm
With a knife and cry and tell me I couldn’t
Do that to him. I ended up having two more children with him because he forced me.
It’s just been a lonely life and I’m trying to
Change but I can’t seem to.December 23, 2015 at 8:28 pm #90479
tough life hopeful
you’ve been through a lot so congratulations for surviving .
Can you aim to starting somewhere fresh away from family and the toxic people who’ve invaded your life?December 24, 2015 at 6:34 am #90525
Your mother, you needed her approval as a child and you did everything you could to get it. You watched her every move, every expression on her face, her eyes, to figure out what to do next to please her. And you failed a lot: “I lived to make her happy and I failed alot.” And now you try to please others, to get their approval, to get along, just like you did with your mother. To not disagree with them, to be kind only to people they approve of…
You operate like you did when you were a child, and most people do continue the patterns of behavior formed in childhood.
To change, good psychotherpay will help you gain insight into what core beliefs you have about who you are, who others are, and what life is about. You may find out that you believe deep inside you that life is about staying out of trouble, staying safe by not asserting yourself, by appeasing others. You may find out that you believe that there is something wrong or “sinful” about you that you need to watch for. And you may find out that those beliefs are not true…
Than maybe life IS ABOUT asserting yourself and being yourself… and not about appeasing and pleasing others (at the expense of being yourself) and you may find out that there was nothing ever wrong or sinful about you, that you were born pure and then you were injured by a negatively critical, disapproving mother who blamed you and punished you for what you were not guilty of.
You owe it to yourself and to your children to get on the healing path, to continue your walk on the healing path. You need to severe your loyalty to your mother, to your parents and form a strong loyal bond to yourself so you can parent your children in ways that will help them be healthy.
anitaDecember 31, 2015 at 9:33 pm #91090NatalinaParticipant
Lately I’ve been struggling with intense low self esteem that has lead to depression, crippling anxiety, unhealthy habits and a lack of energy. I am very unconfident and awkward in social situations, my stomach is churning and my mind is racing right now just thinking about it. It’s as if I am afraid of people. I feel as though I never know what to say in conversations and that people think i am weird. I hate my appearance and every aspect about myself. Everyday i wake up and feel so lethargic and unmotivated. I know a lot about mediation, the law of attraction and have been reading Tiny Buddha’s self help posts and various self help books to assist in positivity. I am aware of what I need to do to change, but every time I put it into practice in my life I fail. I am bombarded with negative intrusive thoughts all day long, and try to correct distorted thinking with positive affirmations, and mediate every day. I hold onto every mistake from the past and am highly sensitive. I and have tried many different exercises and techniques to release them but its like I am trapped. Nothing seems to be effective. I just want to sleep all day, and at times I do not see a purpose for living. This is a major issue in my life that has destroyed friendships and even my relationship with my family. I am pushing everyone away due to my own insecurities.December 31, 2015 at 9:43 pm #91092
I hate my appearance and every aspect about myself
There is the core of your problem. Self-esteem. Until you get good self-esteem, all those other issues will not be solved.
None of us are model types on here to my knowledge. I might very well be the least attractive person . I think appearance is all about presentation. Make an effort. People appreciate effort. They can see you are trying to look presentable. Honestly, if I have to choose a friend I don’t value appearance anyway. If they have some self-confidence, I pay attention to what they say, not how thy look. Confidence and effort are more important than appearance. Energy and enthusiasm too.
I think you should let your personality shine through so others can enjoy the real you!