I’m 28, and up until last year I had self-esteem issues ( from abusive parents) and a history of dating abusive men and having toxic friends. After landing my dream job working at Google, I went to therapy and decided to love and take care of myself. 2 months ago, I started dating a nice guy and we connected over the fact that we both were emotionally damaged and strived for a better life. The thing is it didn’t feel right. He’s 36, a recovering alcoholic, lives with 4 roommates cause he’s working to pay off a 30,000$ debt. After our 1st date, he asked me to meet his mom and within 2 weeks, he told me he loved me. Things were moving way too fast so I broke it off. Also I had just gotten out of a long term relationship and I needed time to heal because I didn’t want the new guy to become a rebound. I struggled with feelings for my ex and I told him I was considering getting back together with my ex.
He was devastated, but understanding. I didn’t want to be selfish so I told him he shouldn’t wait for me to become emotionally strong – that he should live his life.

2 weeks later, I realized I missed him terribly and decided to take a leap of faith. He already started dating another girl to move on from me and told me he liked her. He told him I had hurt him and he thought I was going back to my ex and he couldn’t be my boyfriend anymore, that he wanted us to stay friends and if the universe allows it, we’ll be reunited but he wanted to pursue his other relationship. I admitted that I couldn’t be just friends with him because I love him and he told me he loved me too, but had to let me go. I was devastated and angry so I told him he never loved me cause he got over me so quickly and didn’t want to make an effort to be with me. He got mad too. I wished him the best and left. This morning, he removed me from his social networks. I don’t understand how someone who goes from calling you their soul mate and hoping you’ll be their future wife can forget you so quickly and erase you. I am heartbroken and inconsolable.