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September 22, 2018 at 6:01 pm #226721AnonymousInactive
Everyone is going to think I’m insensitive for saying this. Gigi, you and your husband aren’t a couple anymore. The love died. Divorce him, try to get custody of your son, and then your carefree love days will start anew with your conflicted coworker. You want to know what I think? It was a sign that you had to meet your co-worker. Because if you didn’t, you never would have known that you had marital problems. He has marital problems too. You both are in unhappy marriages. I know separating from someone you married isn’t easy at all, but it will make both of you happier in the long run. But I want to know more about your husband and co-worker’s personalities. Why are you attracted to them? I’m dying to know. Plus,you know what they say: Nothing ventured, nothing gained.
I should also mention that I’m not a marriage counselor, nor am I a relationship expert. I’m just giving advice on what I would do in a situation.
September 22, 2018 at 7:52 pm #226725GigiParticipantThanks Aiyana. My husband is a career driven, family driven guy with a strong sense of pride but also has a sensitive side to him, rather had that, which completely attracted me to him. His sense of responsibility balanced with his sense of ambition and work attracted me to him initially plus he could also be a very kind person if he wanted, but that was 4 years ago. Now he is just critical of me and repulsive. My co-worker on the other hand has a very refreshing personality, he sees me through. He is very kind and caring and gentle but at the same time strong and able. I really do like that about him. He is a great listener and so perceptive…
I wish it was that simple but as someone mentioned here too. I need to seek counseling to figure out what it is that I want. I have had enough ventures in my life, many serious and not so serious ones.. I am beginning to question the integrity of it all.
September 23, 2018 at 3:27 am #226753AnonymousGuestDear Gigi:
You are welcome. There is a lot that has taken place in the last few years in your marriage that you didn’t share about, as there must be reason why this “very kind person” with “a sensitive side” and a “family driven guy” has gone angry at you on an ongoing basis, repulsed and radio silent.
Maybe you want to leave your husband but you are afraid to and so, you want another connection, a relationship with your co worker, to give you the safe feeling you need so to leave your husband.
I suppose your co worker who is “very kind and caring and gentle” can also change, like your husband did…?
I do hope you attend competent psychotherapy/ counseling to figure out what is going on and what to do next. As is, keep yourself as calm as possible, pay attention to what you do at the moment, throughout the day, so to make the best daily choices, and post here anytime.
You wrote: “I have had enough ventures in my life, many serious and not so serious ones… I am beginning to question the integrity of it all”- maybe some answers are right in this sentence. If you would like, you can elaborate on it, what ventures? What integrity are you referring to?
anita
September 23, 2018 at 10:38 am #226829GigiParticipantAnita,
Yes what I can do is think about my day to day choices that I make with my words and action because I am still not competent enough to take a big decision.
The loss of the sensitive side for my husband comes from his culture and background he has grown up in. We are Indians and may be you are too based on your name. He grew up without a father who passed away when he was little and he has only grown up repressing his emotions and learning to only be practical such that he is securing his family’s future. These are commendable qualities in a man. But what I have seen is that even his family promotes emotional retardness so much so that he is always conflicted between being self-aware vs being hypocritical. For example in a healthy marriage boundaries are necessary. Indian families can be intrusive and possessive of their child and grandchild. While I get that I don’t wish to be treated like a third party in his family and that too after I do a lot for them. So I requested to him that my interactions with them will be lesser. He took offense at that. Long story short he pretty much made it clear that he wishes to share nothing with me and I should do the same. I wish I could help him see that talking about the differences do not have to be critical. Small instances like this have drawn this big gap between us and that’s why we are where we are. He wants a marriage where I just cook and clean and smile for him. I wished for a friendship. He doesn’t wish to be one. He was early on but now he says his love for me has changed and he just wants to keep it business. I feel I know where this is heading.
Regarding my coworker you are right, I wanted a safety net. But I am wiser now to know that I should not look for one, if it is there, it is. If not some other time or in some other form. Even though this person is special to me and I appreciate what he could offer, I need to currently get hold of my situation at home.
Thanks to replying to my posts.
September 24, 2018 at 8:13 am #226967AnonymousGuestDear Gigi:
I think I understand better. Although I am not Indian I come from a culture of “intrusive and possessive” familes. I know intrusive and possessive and have suffered from it.
I understand then, how your husband was at one point sensitive to you, loving, but when faced with a conflict between you and his family, he sided with his family, possessed by them, as he was trained to be. And you became a third party, at best.
His loyalty is with his family of origin, not with you, and when there is conflict, game over. Gone is the sensitive, friendly man that he was. He is owned by his parents, dead or alive.
To live in peace with him, you have to submit to his parents/ family of origin, be that third party. Is he waiting for you to do that, do you think, willing to reward you with some.. love if and when you submit to his family?
anita
September 24, 2018 at 9:47 am #227005GigiParticipantAnita,
I tried being that third party and submissive person, someone who initiates taking care of his family. Yet I have only received a third grade treatment and it is difficult for me to keep doing it. I have tIoo much self-esteem to give and then treated like the way I get treated. They wont even talk to me unless and untill I have to cook for him or their grandchild. when they were visiting and staying at my sister in law’s house, they would invite him over but not me. I think I have become older and grown tired of these societal pressures. I was never built for one anyway. So I have requested him that my concept of family is going to be nuclear and just the three of us, he doesnt agree to that and thinks I have betrayed him.
He can be a very abusive man if he wants and also loving, all in the same day. His pride gets hurt easily and when that happens he is scary to be around. I am going to go to a therapist because he doesn’t realize himself how he gets. Can you believe if I say, i also work for a boss who is similar to that?
I think it is our society’s problem. We do not teach boys to be aware of their emotions. We only teach them how to be good in school and extracurriculars. I hope I can teach at least a small fraction to my son so that he grows with some emotional intelligence.
Anita I hope your suffering and experience with “possessive and intrusive” is handled well at this point. Thanks for sharing something, always happy to offer what I can.
Gigi
September 24, 2018 at 9:52 am #227007AnonymousInactiveI can also see that it’s hard enough to deal with personal struggles with not only your husband, but who your in-laws are. I hope it gets better for you. Do you have a creative hobby that you can indulge in for the time being? I would highly recommend yoga and meditation too. Take care, Gigi! =)
September 24, 2018 at 11:31 am #227121AnonymousGuestDear Gigi:
I figured to get along with him you’d need to submit to his family but I didn’t suggest that you should, absolutely not. I am very much against submitting to anyone. Reading about the way his family treats you as well as he himself, I feel badly for you. I know how it feels to be treated badly and I hate thinking that you are experiencing this. I think you should free yourself from this unfortunate situation you found yourself in.
Clearly he is not willing for family to be his chosen family, or the way you term it, the nuclear family, you, him and your child. His family of origin, the one he was born to mistreats you and he does as well. I don’t see any other way but removing yourself and your child from this situation. But you will need help, someone to help you there, where you are at.
anita
September 25, 2018 at 4:22 am #227371AnonymousInactiveGigi, I am concerned when you say that your husband can be abusive. I hope you are in a safe place and that you can reply back to us so that we know that you’re okay. I hope you and your son are safe.
September 25, 2018 at 5:32 pm #227531GigiParticipantAiyana
Thanks for your concern. Yes we are ok and safe. He has a bad temper for sure and has attempted and may be borderline raised his hand on me but he knows better I think.
For now till I figure out what is next best thing to do, I am keeping my distance from him. I don’t think he has it in him to do more than emotional abuse but one never knows.
Thanks
Gigi
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