My family is local & we’ve had to overcome some losses . I’m independent & on my own. I grew up in a dysfunctional disconnected & emotionally violent environment. I’ve worked on forgiveness & the most harmful people are no longer around because they either died or went to jail. But the ones who are around, they are really invalidating & are low key narcissistic because they can’t see their faults. Like they tell me they love me & they check in and I believe them, but I don’t feel safe with them.

They want me to visit, and I give excuses each time. But I just don’t want to go and I’m running out of excuses. Like I’m okay with phone calls but in person I never have the energy . And I can’t like completely blow them off because I will probably need them at some point… but I , like to be frank. I don’t like em. None of em. I appreciate them . Maybe love them. But I don’t like them .