Hi hoping I can get any advice because right now it seems like I’m slipping through a black hole of no return. I’ve always been on and off depressed. I have OCD, social anxiety and at times low confidence. My girlfriend of nearly 4 years dumped me so she can be with a teenager she met under a year ago at the pub she used to work at. My ex and I were best friends for almost six years and now we don’t talk, she hasn’t even reached out to me to apologies how badly she treated me ever since she met this girl. This was four months ago and I know they say time is a healer but I feel like I’m getting worse and worse each day and feel like sometimes my life is not worth living. I’ve been keeping busy. Even social. It seems that nothing is enough to distract me from my heart ache and from feeling so low. I find it so hard to love myself so I don’t see how anyone else could possibly ever love me ever again. It feels like I’ll die alone. What’s worse is I came across a video posted on FB of my ex and this girl dancing in a club and my ex was huging her and was gazing at her the way she used to with me. She seemed so happy and she n love and I’m finding life so cruel when she’s the one that messed me over so badly. but yet she’s the one who is happy and I’m here So miserable not wanting to exist. It’s like this girl she is with has stolen everything from me, my life, my soulmate, my happiness. I feel so alone and unwanted I really don’t know what to do with myself. We had a life planned out together – travelling and moving in together and now she’ll be doing all of these with this girl. It’s so hard accepting everything, how she replaced me with this girl. My ex always said that I was the one and that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with and now it’s like I never existed at all. She’s probably saying all of these things to her now. What’s worse is that This girl she dumped me for is so much like her ex who used to lie and emotionally manipulate her but it took her years to see her true colours and it will take her years to see this teenage girl’s true colours. She’s given up what she called an almost perfect relationship for someone she has nothing in common with. Someone who won’t treat her as nice as I used to. I feel so used becaused I treated my ex with love and respect and I got nothing in return in the end. It it seems that she’s showing this girl love and respect when she doesn’t even deserve it. It sounds bitter of me to say it but this girl is a nasty piece of work and I’ve seen what she’s done to others but my ex is refusing to see the truth. Sorry for going on so long. long story short I hate what my life has become. I just want the world to stop. I wish I never existed.that I never met my ex. This is too hard for me to continue feeling. Please any help at all