Since January, I started talking to this guy whom I did not really know well before (just seen him around college). I did not expect anything from him because I didn’t think it’d progress into such a serious thing where I cannot stop thinking about him. I know that he’s not ready for a committment but I am… Lately we started to argue a lot but after days of silence we managed to work things out and everything was fine. We both assured each other that there is nobody else in our lives that would receive as much attention as the other.

However, I know that he is talking to multiple girls and it hurts me to think that he is being the same with someone else… I let one of my old friends speak to him over messages and now I’ve started avoiding her after they got close as ‘friends’ and he started to ask her for pictures of her smiling in exchange for his pictures ( they have never actually met or seen each other, I was the person to get them to speak as my friend wanted to get to know the guy I like. But he does not know about this). I dont know why but I cant be mad with him… I’m just scared of getting hurt and him leaving me. At this moment I dont really see a point in this “relationship” because he is leaving to go uni very soon which means we will probably not see each other ever again as he only seems to talk to me over messages and never pays attention to me in person.

I do want to break this off but I just cant. All I can think of is him… I want him to know that I want to be serious with him but I think it’s still too early. I’m just a really jealous person and I want him to be 100% with me, like I am with him.