I dated a guy I really like for months, it was a serious relationship, we broke up since I moved out of town because of my job, couple of months later I return to town and tried to get back with him, but he didn’t want. I don’t like guys or get in love pretty often, but once I do is deeply, He is provably the second guy I really get in love with. After couple of months he contacted me again, we started texting and end up hooking up, he was aware that I was in love with him and I was aware that he only wanted sex. It last for couple of months, I told him several times that I wanted more that a “friend with benefits” relationship, but I kept sleeping with him, the last time we had sex, I told him we had to stop. That night we were hanging in the same place, at some point I hear one of his friends asking about a girl, but I could not see to whom he asked, I assumed was to the guy I like. I kept thinking about it, I was going crazy so I asked him, he denied it and we kept arguing for days, it got pretty dramatic until he stop replying. A week later I apologize because I felt nosey and sadly I am not his girlfriend to be jealous, so I guess I have no right to question him or expect loyalty. After that day we did not talk anymore. Yesterday I saw him in a store and say hello, we had a short talk, he was cold (usually he is nothing like that). I felt awful and extremely sad. I can stop feeling that is my fault, that I lost him since I moved out of town; worst that that I know that I can’t continue in that sort of relationship that hurts me and make me feel use, but been away from him hurts even more. I feel guilty of been jealous and make him angry, I miss him and hate myself sometimes for stoping our hook ups, even if it was not the relationship I want. How can I overcome and stop feeling guilty?  how can I get over him? I can’t stop thinking about him and feeling its all my fault, I am afraid that he hate me or something like that.