This is my first time posting on this forum and I really need some insight.

So I met this girl many years through my brother when I was starting 8th grade. 9th grade we started dating and but as I think about it now, felt like it just puppy love or just something but it got real intense during those years. We broke over my decision just because she didn’t answer the phone (I know its ridiculous, boys will be boys) and she was sleeping. Over the years, her and I just been off and on talking, fight or no, and I was really clingy. I would send her friend request and unfriend her and do it all over. I was basically obsess with her until senior year I left the high school where she was at and move to Michigan. I moved back to Michigan because of her and I really don’t know why, maybe I wanted a second chance, but I living in the past too much. I would see around and it would be really awkward and silent. 8 months in, I left to Michigan again. I was really in a dark depressive state and I tried committing suicide by overdosing on sleeping pill. My mom found out and wanted me back in Washington. So I deciding to pack up, put my two week in, and left once again. I came back in my depressive state, not leaving the house staying in my room, till I decided to get back up and go to doctor and get a therapist. 7 months in, I finally and slowly seeing the light of me and starting to do the things I love after of years of depression.

As 21 now, I decided to go to a diner with my niece after book shopping. I sat down with ask for coffee and etc, 15 minutes later, she walk in (ex or old flame, etc) and I recognize her voice. I kept my cool and I felt the energy really awkward. Then she looked and me and I smile at her back and I felt the awkwardness break. We were talking and laughing on how my niece looks too much like there mother and father. She was laughing at most of my corniest jokes and ask how my brother was and everything and actually looking at me straight in my eye without any awkwardness. She was smiling the whole and I felt this happiness feeling and warmth when I think about her positively. I didn’t talk about the past because that something shouldn’t bring up or any personal stuff. I tried to meditate and seek answer but felt nothing. To be honest, I’m not trying to over think it. I just need some insightful answer. Is she sending me mix signals or I should forget about it and move on and focus on my goal or let the universe do it thing. We rarely talked via text and that was the first time in 5 years we talked face to face. Sometimes I feel like we’re meant for each other but sometimes, I felt like she was just a lesson.