My name is Bas, I'm 25 years old and I suffer from anxiety. These last two years have almost been unbearable and have crippled me into an extremely anxious person.
A couple of years ago I had a bad accident that almost blinded me (luckily it didn't happen). The thought of going blind was so scary that it gave me anxiety, I just couldn't stop thinking about it. The thinking sporadically started becoming more irrational…After a while I feared that my thoughts could turn into a reality. More specifically, I was scared that the fear of becoming blind was actually going to make me blind. This site helped me so much because it taught me that my thoughts aren't real. What I would really appreciate if if you guys can reinforce the belief that thoughts aren't real and tell me that no matter how much I worry about becoming blind, that it will never lead to blindness. I feel that enforcing that belief can finally set me free from anxiety. I am to scared to see a therapist or research this myself because I fear that I will read something that can worsen my anxiety. I am a very sensitive human being so please keep that in mind when you post.
It's so right what you say that ideas are not real, but they can really twist us around can't they? Thank you for posting, I know it takes courage. Each one of us that speaks our struggles, I believe, creates an environment that makes it alright for more of us to admit that life can feel so hard. And so experience support. I hope you continue to find your way forward, and are strengthened by the good in people, in nature and in you.