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    Nobody
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    i am a logical person. I never let emotions control me. Except for my anger. That I have no control over. My anger is the reason why I have no family and no friends. Nothing nice. Because of my anger, I destroy everything and blame everyone.

     

    I hate people because of it. I find the smallest things to hate in people. The way they talk, walk, look, smell, breath, and so on. Everything just annoys me. So I isolate myself. But after awhile I get lonely.

     

    its hard to completely isolate yourself. I killed so many animals growing up because it’s the only thing that makes the feeling go away. And now I’m afraid I’m going to kill someone. I almost did multiple times. Like some kind of animal in me is controlling me and I have to try so hard to take control. I am completely paralyzed.

     

    i am so alone. I am destroying everything in my way. I can’t stand it anymore. I’m losing my mind. Or maybe I already lost it.

     

    I feel like I just need to kill someone to feel sane again. But I don’t want anyone to find out and think I’m a monster. I don’t want to be completely alone.

     

    but I will if I have no other choice.

    #166614
    Felita
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    Hi nobody,

    Why do you think killing someone will make you sane again? Is that so you can remove your lonely feeling?

    If that so, try not to get rid of it. Feel the feeling. You said “can’t stand it anymore”, in my opinion, if you want to be sane again, feel your feeling. All humans have feeling, even the most logical person on earth, they have feeling too. Don’t resist the feeling and embrace it. Try slowly to get  in touch with your feeling, identify it and talk to people. It can help you maybe to share stories with people and empathize. And last important thing, you’re not a murderer. Everyone makes mistakes. It is our choice to let the mistakes ruin us or to let them make us grow be a better person. Hope it helps.

    Felita.

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