Hi this is my first post and i recently just become one the community. I am an indonesian guy age 27 which happen to be tomorrow and i dont look forward to it at all. Right now there is so much going on inside me that i cant seem to put it into words because of this devastating 3 months of my life and as if it doesnt get better at all, i felt the pain was just like yesterday but im going to try to tell my story.

My girl decided to end the relationship few months ago, we were together for 5.5y and i really having a tough times right now and so does she. I am very sad despite all of my effort to make things right by going to her family and apologising that i made a mistake but we humans do make mistake and thats where we learn to be better. I find it very difficult for me to move on with everything that i do, i dont have the energy or the interest. i just want to be alone all the time i dont know whats happening with me. i have a job but i just felt i have no interest at all in doing it as if i got a lesson wealth is needed to provide a better and prosperous being but on the other side i felt strongly that without happiness it really means nothing at all, you just felt so empty inside. how can i feel alive again despite all of my effort to make myself stand up again? i didnt really have any friends at all because i was so completely into her and i really regret it now.