Hi guys,

I know this is study-related but my degree will lead to a specific job so hopefully this is the right forum.

I don’t really know what I’m asking to be honest but thought I’d just write it out anyway.

I’m in my second year of my degree and I’m in a constant state of indecision about it. It’s like, I want the degree and the job, but I have absolutely no inclination to do extra reading or study and attending uni feels like it’s basically something to pass my time(!) I almost feel trapped in it, I could easily leave, it doesn’t have to be the be all and end all, but I’m terrified of getting a menial job and what the hell else would I do anyway? And I don’t want to let anyone down. So, you’d think this fear would spur me on to do well but it just doesn’t. My degree is in a healthcare profession so I can’t be halfhearted about it, but that’s exactly how I am at the moment.

I had a rubbish first year (along with the rest of the class) due to the institution’s poor organisation and lost a fair bit of motivation. It’s not too bad now but I’d always rather be doing something else! I don’t arrive at class enthusiastic, ever. I’m just going through the motions.

It has come to the point where I do think, what IS the point of me doing it if I’m not putting the effort in? I feel like I just don’t care about it, but I obviously do, because I wouldn’t be working myself up into such a state otherwise! It feels like fear is crippling me!

I just don’t know what to do for the best 🙁

Any advice would be so appreciated!