This is my first time explaining about a situation in writing, so bear with me >.<
in summary, when i met the person we talked normally and i liked the personality, felt comfortable‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬ but then the person said they’d text me but hasn’t and since then i got concerned but i thought of how nice it’d be to at least have a good friend‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬. maybe all i want from this person is to be good friends, because i don’t constantly think of them but lately whenever we saw each other, i’d get a bit nervous‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬ and even when i see this person with other girls i get irritated for no reason‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬ but i don’t want to seem like someone who’s trying to get this person especially if they don’t think the same way‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬ after talking to this person. i do get happier than usual for a long time, but i don’t always imagine myself with this person‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬ it’s just confusing, because i don’t want to force anything but it also means i never know how i really feel.‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬ i always get the urge to talk to this person even though they don’t talk to me first most of the time, or they will talk sometimes in a way they care, but then there’s times when i text but the person doesn’t answer back‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬. maybe i just feel upset because of the person not interested which somehow makes me more interested‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬ because of the person not being so clingy‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬. i can’t write a lot of specifics because we’d see each other a few times, sometimes text, but otherwise not much else, but i like how the person seems to be aware of things, calm, not boastful or anything like that‬‬‬‬‬‬‬‬.
in other words, i felt that the most we’ve conversed was when we first met and and texted each other, because after we called each other on the phone once, which was about a couple of weeks later, it seemed as if there was distance, maybe because he was too embarrassed to talk anymore. from that time, i’ve tried every now and then to text or meet him in person but i sometimes fail to talk in person because he would talk to other people or look busy. what’s strange to me is, even though lately we haven’t talked as much as before, because of not having anything to say to each other, other than me talking about emotional problems because of a mix between at least having some sort of conversation but mainly because of feeling sad or mad at the fact that we can’t quite express each other, he seems more engaged and open to other people he talks to. at times he’ll even come up to me too to say hi and one time invited me to hang out but the atmosphere in general isn’t like how i feel with my friends, or relaxed, cheerful and nonchalant, nor isn’t necessarily a bad feeling either, just awkward. so he seems open at first but what i don’t understand is that if he can take the time to talk to other people then why does it seem hard for him to talk to me, even though he did mention liking someone to me.
and is there a way i can move forward in this kind of relationship?