It was a sunny afternoon, and we were walking around the park enjoying the weather. I casually wanted to chat about where we are, but the outcome of the conversation took me by surprise and went as far as potentially going our separate way due to our incompatibilities. It was a mutual agreement to not make rash decisions. That night, we were watching a movie, and I asked him if he still loves me like I usually do. He paused and said he will always love me as a friend. That was the end of it all.
It’s been a month since that day, and I’m still trying to move on. I can’t help but ask myself (I know I shouldn’t) what would happen if I didn’t bring up the conversation. Would we still be together? I feel like we definitely would. And if he has been having doubts, why didn’t he bring it up and try to work through it together.
Yeah, my heart is broken. And I know he’s already talking to other people. I have been doing the same even though I know I’m not ready. I feel it would hurt me even more if he starts dating someone, and I still haven’t moved on. Also, we both said we want to stay friends.But now I’m not sure if that’s even what I want. I do want him in my life, but it just hurts that it will never be the same.
“I can’t help but ask myself.. what would happen if I didn’t bring up the conversation. Would we still be together? I feel like we definitely would”- when you brought up during a walk in the park the topic of where the two of you were as a couple, it is like you directed a source of light, like a flashlight, at the relationship, and what was wrong with it became visible.
If you didn’t direct that figurative flashlight at the relationship, what was wrong with the relationship would have remained in the dark for just a little while longer, maybe a week, a month, maybe even a few months, but what was wrong would have made itself visible eventually.