It started when I was young, and my older brother would play with his friend. I would try to play with them but they ended up ditching me a lot( for example, I liked to play hide and seek, and they would use that to their advantage). I was really quiet in Pre-K, and only had a few friends. I would not talk AT ALL. One of the biggest points in my life was a few years ago. For a few years, we had these neighbors that me and my younger brother would play with. A lot of times they would exclude me, and run away from me, and tease me, and this lasted for a few years. And here I am with what I would consider real friends. The issue is, though, when they try to include me, I usually stay behind because I don’t feel wanted. I also have trust issues, and when something little happens, I’m sad/depressed for the rest of the day. It’s horrible, because they are so nice to me, but I just pull away. I also have anxiety and that doesn’t help. I often question if they are my friends because they feel bad for me. I don’t really have what I would consider “close” friends either.