Wow… It has been an entire five months since my mother’s car has been down. Being in the house for five months really is a test of one’s character. I guess living in the South and being car-less is not really an idea that one should have to fathom, I suppose… I thought that if I give her all of the child support from my father that it would help our situation but it has not… Being optimistic is the only way for me to deal with our issue. The fact that I am enrolled in four online courses does help my time go by, but still I become very lonely or flat out bored lol. Most times I just ask myself why do I go through all of these changes? Is there something that life is preparing me for that I am unaware of. I do not like to constantly mention all I do, but you know how parents say ‘ I have sacrificed a lot?’ So have I. My mom sacrifices SOOO much, and I try to think of our situation as just a troubling season… But what do you do when it is a long, trying season. I feel myself becoming very bitter as a result, which I try each day at a time to deal with, but it can be very consuming. We’ve struggled for so long, that I have lost hope and my natural joy. Something has got to give… Sometimes it feels like we will be financially struggling forever, and it becomes depressing. I sure hope there is a reason why I am experiencing all of this. College is the only way for me to be happy… For me a successful career equals financial stability, which in turn yields happiness. Please someone who is mature and wise lend me some helping words.