Hello.I’m new here.Nice to meet you!I bracketed my crush as “(a)” and my girlfriend as “(b)” so that you wont be confused.
So, a few years ago, my crush(a) liked me and she confessed to me. I was reluctant to accept even though i had feelings about her. I had a girlfriend that time too.But then, my girlfriend(B) then broke up with me and i then said to my crush that i liked her too.So, we started dating and stuff.Few weeks passed by, my ex-girlfriend(b) asked if we can be together again. At that time, i had bigger feelings to my girlfriend(B) than my crush(a).So, i said yes and became her boyfriend and i left my crush(a).I felt very guilty that time.I was even called a “player” by her friends. I know that i did something wrong.So, i went to my crush(a) and apologized to her.She was very kind to forgive me.I felt happy that she was still friends.I thought that our “bridge” of friendship would fall and we won’t be friends.Another few months passed by, my crush(a) and I was very close friends and at that time i realized that my girlfriend(b) had been using me.I also still had feelings to my crush(a).I then decided to break up with my girlfriend(b) for a greater good.I then took courage to confess to my crush(a) who now has a boyfriend.She was shocked and thought that I was joking.I convinced her that i was serious.She believed me and just says okay.Not long later, she kept sharing her feelings to me about her boyfriend, she and her boyfriend’s relationship is worsening.My feelings got stronger and i now is more like obsessed.soon after that, she broke up with her bf.One year passed by, she was now dating with my best friend.Since then, i regretted my actions on choosing my girlfriend(b) than my crush(a).I know I am a cruel person but what should i do?