Yes I know there are a ton of people who have it far worse but I can’t deal with my own problems! I also have nobody in my life I can turn too because nobody cares about me or my problems. People say you need a support system but I can’t even get 1 friend! Hell and as I said in my other thread, the 1 person who’s atleast tried to care a LITTLE is done with me now after just over a month dealing with my toxic ways. Yes she called me a sweet soul and an angel and it made her cry that I saved someones life and how i can’t do this alone and need peoples help but i’m alone with my problems I can’t even deal with, and now with her gone COMPLETLY alone. I’m not even going to attempt to get better, I clearly don’t deserve it.

Nope, I’ve already turned to booze. Buying more today! You guys should probably ignore me in this thread now, i’m a lost hope just like my dad would tell me…GIVE UP!!! always have these thoughts in my head. I’m already drunk and angry.