November 12, 2017 at 10:30 am #177777
I'm so sure where to begin so I will just try my best!
About 2 years ago, when I was a Christian, I smoked a lot of weed which opened me up to a devil entity.
I spent years before that trying to summon a succubus spirit (because, at the time I had very limited beliefs), failed and went into a deep depression. This is why, when I became vulnerable, the devil appeared (or so I thought at the time).
Anyway as time went on, the voice remained and I've lost some of that power which resulted in this voice becoming very negative.
Through practicing mindfulness and being present I've got to the point where it is just empty words with no emotion or will behind it (such as ‘dog', ‘fool' and ‘kneel')
Sometimes the voice would tell me it's all in my head and it's my dreams but I doubt my mind is more than empty slurs..
I wouldn't care as it helps me be present, focusing on what is happening here and now and less on my mind but here's the big problem.. I still want to experiment with a succubus!
Now that I've become much wiser than back when I had limited beliefs.. I see them as a created being in my mind, just like lucid dreaming but while awake (if that makes sense)
But this negative being prevents me from achieving it the way I wish for it and speaking to it results in more name calling, telling me to kneel and so forth..
I don't even believe in the devil anymore but rather see it as a very dark manifestation
I understand that letting go of attachments helps but I feel as though I'm not truly free because of that.. I feel as though I'm forced into letting go of something (such as letting go of that desire) when in truth, I know what I want.
I see nothing wrong with exploring sexual desire in my mind ( this woke me up from organized religion) and it makes me feel depressed at times.
Sorry for any bad English and spacing (my phone is making this much more difficult to type than it could be!) I may of left out some major details so I will reply if needed,
Thanks!November 12, 2017 at 10:52 am #177785
If you haven't so far, it might be beneficial for you to see a medical doctor. These “like lucid dreaming but while awake …name calling, telling me to kneel and so forth” may be a matter of psychosis. And if so, it is treatable, from my understanding.
anitaNovember 12, 2017 at 11:06 am #177787
I actually was diagnosed psychosis when it started because I couldn't understand what was happening at that time but as time went on I've learned to control it in many beneficial ways to the point I see it as a strange gift.
The negative voice is really empty and not bothering at all but it's when I wish to explore other spiritual beings/things it can bring me down.
I've had many amazing events happening that made me believe that it is more than just my mind such as being told I will see someone at a time in a place and it actually happening
It made me question the diagnosis completely at the timeNovember 12, 2017 at 11:27 am #177789
If you have a question, can you state the question? If you have a request here otherwise, can you clearly state it?
anitaNovember 12, 2017 at 11:44 am #177793
What would be the best approach to removing this dark entity? It's been 4 years now and it's a nuisance, stopping me from doing what I want to do.
I don't feed it at all and have done light meditations, visited healers (helped a bit but didn't remove it), mindful meditations.. nothing seems to work,
Thanks.November 13, 2017 at 3:55 am #177877
You asked: “What would be the best approach to removing this dark entity?”
You referred to that dark entity as “a devil entity” and “a very dark manifestation”. You have experienced it during” lucid dreaming but while awake” and heard its “negative voice is really empty and not bothering at all but it's when I wish to explore other spiritual beings/things it can bring me down.”
1. Stop trying to explore other spiritual beings, specifically “to summon a succubus spirit”, that is, a demon in female form that appears in men's dreams so to seduce men via sexual activity. I understand your interest in having sexual activity with a woman, and so, aim at a relationship with a woman.
2. Avoid people in your life who are cruel. There are such people. Be kind to yourself and to others.
There is no such thing as a devil or demons. We assign cruelty to an entity out there, a devil, or entities, demons, so to not see the cruel people in our lives.
Look at the people in your life, choose who you interact with, and evaluate how you interact with others. Make your waking, real life meaningful and loving.
3. Consider anti-psychotic medications to be prescribed by a psychiatrist.