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November 20, 2017 at 7:10 pm #178849ClairParticipant
Please help me understand how a grown man, 59 can just leave & not say goodbye..nothing. I met this man at a Rehab center, his life turned upside down by an unexpected disability. A strong, independent & very prideful man. He is a very likeable person and has worked hard all his life. We formed a special friendship and I did everything to make his miserable stay at the Rehab center tolerable. I have been single for a VERY long time and was quite content with my life. I surrendered to the fact I would never fall in love again or that anyone would even be interested in me. I have a strong personality and just as REAL as you can get. I am very passionate, kind, fun loving, loyal and very sincere. He showed an interest in me other than a friend. I too found myself falling in love with him. I had a very hard time realizing and accepting my very unexpected whirlwind of emotions. Really, at my age ! But NEVER SAY NEVER ! It happened & it was so wonderful ! We both shared very intimate conversations and a year & 6 months of many hours together. He had a hard time expressing what he felt but at times was able to spit out that he wanted me in his life, he liked me more than a friend & that he would never do anything to hurt me. He even stated he would get me a key to his new apartment when he was released from the Rehab center. And even said “I love You ” on New Years Eve. He knew i loved him and stated that he was not able to count on anyone, not even his family but could always count on me. The night before the day he was to go to his new apartment I told him I would give him time to settle in and be with his family. He insisted it would be ok to call but I again said it would be better to give him some alone time. As I walked away after saying good night he asked if I was not going to give him a kiss. As I turned and walked towards him to kiss him he stated ” are you embarrassed ?”. I said” of course not, I have been kissing you good nite this whole time. ” We spoke on the phone several times that week and then he all of sudden did not return my calls. I let it go and then a month later a mutual acquaintance had passed and I took the chance to call and he answered. He had another set back & was at another facility in a town 2 hours away. He stated he did not tell me because he did not want me to worry about him. It was the very last time we spoke despite my futile calls. I want someone other than my very close friends and family to give me an answer.
November 21, 2017 at 6:41 am #178911AnonymousGuestDear Clair:
You wrote that the night before he was to leave to his new apartment he told you that he cannot count on his family but he can count on you. You responded to him telling him that you will give him time away from you so “to give him time to settle in and be with his family”-
I don’t understand: why did you want to give him time away from the person he said he could count on and with the family he said he could not count on?
anita
November 21, 2017 at 3:14 pm #178981ClairParticipantNo, the conversation about who he was able to count on took place about 9 months into our relationship. What he said to me the last night we were together before he was to be discharged from the Rehab facility when he asked for a kiss was if I was embarrassed. When everything was being organized and set up for him to move into a handicap apartment which was about 2 weeks before he left, he told me he would finally be able to lock his door. He would finally be able to have real privacy, no constant interruptions, peaceful sleep and that we could finally be free to show our affection for one another.As far as him being able to count on me, I was always there. I did everything for him. I was risking my job to save him. He was very well aware of that. I wanted him to enjoy time to himself, some space. He had not been able to care for himself and be independent for 3 years since the onset of his illness.
November 22, 2017 at 4:53 am #179103AnonymousGuestDear Clair:
When he told you that he “would finally be able to have real privacy, no constant interruptions”, you think he meant that he wanted privacy from you, no interruptions by you?
And if so, how does it fit with you telling him that you will be giving him time to be with his family, following his discharge: wouldn’t time with his family negate privacy and wouldn’t that be interruptions, to him?
anita
November 23, 2017 at 5:46 pm #179277Wanderlust16ParticipantMaybe he just didn’t want to burden you and feels shamed that he had a setback. Maybe he fears intimacy. Being at the facility there was lack of privacy, therefore, he felt safe and now that he’s on his own, he’s fearful of being alone with a woman. I wouldn’t take his actions personally. It probably has nothing to do with you but what he’s going through personally. We’re speculating not knowing what’s going on with him. You did your best by trying to reach out and that’s all you can do. In the meantime, I would focus on you. Best of luck.
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