I have lost all my faith in everyone and every thing.
2 months after leaving my home and moving to another country I realize I had only one true friend, one one person who stays in contact with me. One. After all that time learning and growing with people that meant most to me they just disappear from my life like its nothing. I thought moving would be great, less than a week here and I had a job and a boyfriend ( we met before I moved), and a school to start planning for where I would learn the techniques that I need for the rest of my career.

Until, my boyfriend and I broke up, my cat died, Im stuck in a position that doesnt require any skill of what I spent the last year of my life doing, and not being able to attend this new school until at least january.

Now I am alone, completely.

I hate the thought of making friends, I despise the thought of love actually existing, and I feel like I’m stuck.

The only thing I have any interest in is bringing myself into a healthy state (Ive always been struggling with weight issues, depression, and anxiety) by eating clean and trying to be more active. I may start yoga next week. But I just absolutely hate the thought of other people coming into my world. As a leo and a very social person all my life this scares me.

Is there ANYONE who can help me see a bright side? Because I am quickly losing all hope.