Dear Afrin:

I think that most people do not experience the perfect balance between happy and sad, between high and low. When the brain experiences too-sad, it compensates by bringing about a too-happy experience, over-releasing the feel-good chemicals.

You are going through a tough time but if you panic, or continue to panic, it will get worse. As it is, it is not as bad as it seems to you. You are in a crisis, but not an irreversible one, you can get better. And you will, if you don’t panic, if you don’t jump to conclusions. Got to relax best you can, then think rationally, take little steps that make steps and move forward.

anita

Dear Afrin:

Start from the beginning. You ran fast for a long time, got far and then fell down. As you get up, don’t run this time, walk instead, slowly, one thoughtful step at a time. And seek help with this new beginning, you need help to walk “On a slippery slope”.

You can stay on this thread or start another (why would you want to start another?)

anita

Dear Afrin:

I think bipolar like other disorders is a spectrum thing and most people experience the transitions from too sad/ distressed to very happy/ calm. Like I wrote, the brain compensates, or makes up for too much distress by releasing lots of feel-good chemicals from time to time, sort of taking a much needed break from misery.

As you process the misery, that is the distress of having been mistreated living with your parents, then having been mistreated as you left, as you soften that misery imbedded in the neuropathways of your brain, you will also experience lack of the compensating highs.

anita