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April 15, 2019 at 8:25 am #289093
MelaniParticipantHi
Lately i have been dealing with the most stress ive ever dealt with in my life. I typically am a pretty carefree, happy minded person. But lately i have been very overwhelmed with my financial situation, my health, school, living situation, family and relationship issues. It has all seemed to capsize within the last 2 months. My health over the last 2 months has been getting worse, and i feel like my body is just against me. I dont feel comfortable in my own home, i dont feel like ive put a good enough effort towards my schooling. Im in a new relationship and seem to feel like im constantly being judged or judging myself amd cant seem to get anything right. Im broke as fuck, my workplace is broke and my bosses cheques keep bouncing. My family is full of aggression and anger, and addiction. Ive been so busy i cant find time to see my friends, who i feel i cant talk to about anything. I feel like i just need to keep pretending like im happy and strong like always, and i feel like i have no one tp talk to anymore. I dont want to burden people with my problems, i know everyone has there own. Im just feeling extremely lost, and hopeless. I dont know what to do, i cant shake this feeling and i dont want to feel this way. It seems like everything is against me, nothing wants me to succeed, and i begin to believe that there is no point in trying anymore. I just need help, i just need support, i dont know how to deal with this, i feel sick all the time.
April 15, 2019 at 8:54 am #289113
AnonymousGuestDear Melani Courtemanche:
You wrote: “I feel like i just need to keep pretending like im happy and strong like always, and i feel like I have no one to talk to anymore. I don’t want to burden people with my problems”-
– you are welcome to tell your problems here, just as they are. You are welcomed to do it here, to not pretend whatsoever, to tell it like it is.
Will you share about your health problems, what they are and approximately your age, as well as the most disturbing part of what you shared already, if you are living with your family, and that is, “My family is full of aggression and anger”?
anita
April 15, 2019 at 10:47 am #289143MelaniParticipantIm 23, and over the last 2 months i feel like all ive been doing is taking medication, mostly for minor infections and pain related. But it began as one, and developed into another, and into another. I feel like its a byproduct of the stress and anxoety ive been under lately. I havent been taking the best care of myself, not noticing when my body is telling me to slow down, or warning signs. I do not live with my family, but live very close to them and see them very often. I grew up with a lot of family issues in my home. Mainly stemming from addictions, and currently, it appears that everyone in my family is really struggling with some type of addiction, and this anger that seems to accompany it. It has always hurt me tp see the addiction issues, and know i can only try to support and guide, but cant help. When i feel down like this, i often fall in a similar habit of trying to ignore my issues and distract myself with alcohol or drugs. But im really trying not to do that becuase i know it does not help, it only hurts. My families negative attitudes often rub off on me, and i try not to let it effect me, but its hard to see your family like that.
April 15, 2019 at 11:25 am #289153AnonymousGuestDear Melani:
I am wondering if you feel guilty about taking care of yourself and being well yourself when your family is suffering, like it would be a betrayal.. maybe you are waiting for them to be okay so that then you will have the right to be okay as well. Is it true, or any part of it?
anita
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